this thought always have wondered me...what is the perfect time of marriage?? i have asked many people about it.some of them told me when u will be ready for it. but how would i know that i am ready....or what if i don't feel myself ready in my entire life....some of them told me if you are in mid twenty and got a job that is the signal of perfect moment.i wonder is marriage a achievement?? i mean i achieved a job then a groom then a child...one achievement after another... what after that??? marriage in mid twenties,baby and then....waiting for my children to grown up and let them marry 2 carry on the process..... is this the meaning of life..... getting married,producing babies and be a good & responsible wife.. i wonder. when i draw the whole picture it always frightened me....i never found my self in that picture.... i found a adjusting and compromising fellow in that picture who is not me. i am not against marriage.....whether it z love or arrange...but marriage without exploring your life i am against this thought.... i have always told every1 that why to marry early....i have whole life ahead....but in india people have adapted the idea...if you dn't marry young then u wn't be able to conceive....i mean c'mon..... we are living in the area of modern medical science....still living in the thought of 18th century??? its very important that i am sharing my entire life with some1....( i believe in marrying only 1 person...but if you are ready for 2nd or 3rd marriage....bravo!!! i am totally in...i mean for the sake of society and all those rubbish i dn't believe to stay in a relationship which has tons of compromise and complain....and where z full bitterness and unfaithfulness) but generally i am speaking...if i live with a same person for rest of my life.... i can imagine how boring that will be....so...why to hurry.... 1st let me enjoy my twenties....i'l be never as beautiful as now in my entire life....let me cherish my beauty...my freedom...i want a girls night out...i want 2 wear bikinis(yes!! i am that confident), i want got to bike ridding,i want to see new places...i want to hear the sound of rain dripping slowly....sunlight is slowly touching my face...once it was so dark and suddenly it z full of light in the sky...i want to tell some1 about my feeling...i want to laugh cry...i want to wear a lot of makeup....go for shopping...trying out bold clothes(YES! In India too) ,trying vendor foods....sleepless gossips... yeah!! i want some1 special but if that person z not available then definitely FRIENDS!!! there z so much to do!! i can't involve myself in responsibility and marriage where i have so many things to do.....but there z a plus point in early marriage...like early sex....and more sex....but that z the only plus point....but when i imagine myself with the same person in my entire life then this plus point fades out gradually.but i have born and brought up in begali culture....here girls grow an extra pair of wing while talking about their marriage...about their makeup,jewelry, hair style in that special day(like this is the only big achievement and this the only big deal of any1's life).i love the bridal makeup thing...but red saree never attracts me....neither those heavy junk jewelry.....neither those wired RASAMs..... i like christian marriage...simple but elegant.even i have requested my parents to get a christian groom ...my parents are like"are you out of your mind...if saree doesn't work for ya then get a lehega....but that's enough...no more idiotic request "......why society z still against inter religion marriage...i wonder...but its a big issue..i m not going deep into it....i always have noticed that girls are running away from their marriage in Hollywood films or rejecting BF when they propose to marry or putting their carrier 1st than getting married. but here in India the picture is reverse( i am not talking about that scenario where girls love some1 and marry other guy with highest qualification...parents happy...i am happy...who cares about looser lover and vice versa for boys too....this kind of hypocrisy agitate me deeply)...when the picture will roll here...that girls are getting married lately or they are letting the family know that she is not interest in babies...or putting their carrier before( am not talking about them who wait for the biggest qualified fish in the pond to catch them and after that quit their job to be housewives and relax for the entire life ..for boys waiting for "SABSE BADA BOLI LAGANE WALA" or a fat dowry and a fair girl with lots of properties and jewelry)....so...the conclusion is i m so ready to explore sex life but not my marriage life(YES!! pervert thinking(or not!?)!! what can i do!!? i am being honest). marriage is the last thing i wanna explore...but here people ready to explore it 1st....so i wonder...how would it be....or i am wrong about my thought....or other people are right or vice versa....
